What A Scare!

Matthew scared me half to death today! I was giving him his multivitamin through a dropper (in his cheek) and he started gagging on me and couldn't breathe. His eyes got really big and he started turning a light shade of blue. He just couldn't get a breath and I didn't know what else to do but rub his back and pray that he take a breath! I was just about to grab the phone when he finally got some color back and went limp. I kept rubbing his back until he started breathing more. AHHH! It made me think of Maggie and her son, Ericson, (they were neighbors to us at the NICU) and she said they had made a trip to the ER already due to him gagging and turning purple, not able to breathe!!! I was going to take a shower, but instead I am going to keep a very close eye on Matthew until I am sure he doesn't have anything whatsoever in that throat of his. He is now sleeping in the swing and I my heart is not pumping so hard. Everything is just fine now, but it makes you realize how fast something can happen. I think I will be discussing another alternative to supplementation for Matthew with our home nurse and the pediatrician tomorrow. I do not want to do that again. This is the 2nd time we tried it and the first time he also had a difficult time (but not like this!)

At Home And Loving Every Minute Of It!!

Matthew is now home and doing very well. He still has small dips in his O2 and heartrate once in a while with feedings, but gets stronger and stronger every day. It is amazing what a difference even one day is! I'm not sure where his wt. is exactly, since the pediatrician and visiting home nurse have completely different measurements, but know that he is over 8 lbs and eating continuously :) The only main concern we have at this point is not having any dirty diapers (besides being wet) for several days, but hopefully that will work itself out soon.

We have a visiting home nurse that just stops in to see Matthew and get a weight about every 3-4 days. She addresses any concerns that we are having. Plus, we have also been to the pediatrician for routine exams/immunizations :( Not too happy I agreed to the first set of shots, I don't know what I was thinking...he was not himself for a few days and made me a complete wreck. I should have had them wait, especially since he is not trully a two month old for two more months in development.

Matthew is doing the newborn thing...sleeping, EATING, and I hope soon pooping... He is a wonderful baby and only gets up in the night to eat, then goes right back to sleep. During the day, he has had more and more awake time...an hour or two in the morning and evening. He definitely lets you know when he is hungry, with a high-pitched squeel until that food is present. He is growing fast and seems so BIG to Eric and I because he has atleast doubled in size from when he was born. He is looking more and more like a full-term baby, if not already.

Andrew is a proud big brother and loves helping Mom and Dad with feeding, bathing, playing, holding, and watching the little guy. He has recently shown a little bit of jealousy with Mom's time, but it is all that we expected. If Matthew is cuddled, he needs a little cuddling, etc. I am so happy that we decided to have one more, and I think overall Andrew is too. In fact, he says he wants us to have more babies...but we are done.

Two wonderful miracles...